Motherhood…it is one of, if not, the hardest responsibility I have. And it is not necessarily the day-to-day tasks of motherhood that are the hardest for me, but living in the grace of motherhood. The past month, I have had some challenging moments as a mom especially with my four year old. The attitude that has been spewing out of his mouth at different moments of the day can make me want to scream…and I might actually take a moment to do that. This week I had a moment of being done (Yes, it was just a moment, but it was a long one.)
Toys were flying and the kids were screaming. In that moment, I stood up and monster mom appeared. I can still see the little faces looking up at me with big eyes as they stopped in silence. Let’s just say I lost it. Both boys were sent to their rooms and I was getting on to them and at the same time talking to myself out loud. “Get in your room. I cannot do this anymore. What is wrong with you guys? I don’t know what else to do.” As I walked into my room deflated, my heart was gripped. That is when I heard that still peaceful voice say, “Jennifer, you cannot ask them to demonstrate something they are not seeing.” Ouch. It was a painful correction, but beautiful correction. I called the boys into the room and we sat on the floor, held hands and prayed, not only for their obedience and self control, but for mommy’s as well. I had to humble myself and ask for forgiveness as I had been in the same attitude they were in.
When I went to bed that night, I opened up my Bible and found several scriptures to pray as my desire is to bear self control, not just for my children’s sake, but for mine and ultimately for God. The key scripture I am praying is Proverbs 16:32 “Better to be patient than powerful; better to have self control than conquer a city.” Then I discovered a recent podcast by Priscilla Shirer’s Going Beyond Ministries blog. It was regarding parenting and it hit the bulls eye for me. She gives a resolution for mother’s that I want to share and encourage all moms to listen to the podcast as it explains the below resolution.
Resolution: I will DEMONSTRATE to my children how to love God with all their hearts, minds, and strength, and will train them to respect authority and live responsibly.
As if that was not enough, I woke up the next morning to read John 13 where Jesus demonstrates to his disciples true servanthood and humility by washing the disciples feet. He tells them in verse 15, “I have given you an example to follow. Do as I have done to you.” I definitely think God is trying to teach me something. Hahaha.
I will demonstrate. This is my challenge…to demonstrate. I know I am not perfect and that there will be days where I fail, but I have made a resolution in my heart that I will demonstrate to my children God’s love, patience, gentleness, kindness, joy, peace, goodness, faithfulness and self control both in my actions and words. I pray that as this has challenged me in so many ways that it also challenges you. It challenges you as a mom, parent, or friend to be a demonstrator and be assured that God will give you the grace to do the demonstrating…everything rest in His grace.